criticism tears me down
even while i was building up
i try to be a good girl
a good wife.
i fail.
newly weds. independent.
my mind goes dark, i fear
the onset of the shadow.
heart of hearts breaks.
i can do no more.
Lord, lift the shadow
before it consumes me.
anger is my constant companion
fear, its soul mate.
i need no friends, i have enough,
i need my love, my marriage to live.
i try, i cry, i try, i cry.
a continued struggle.
“i only wanted to lie with my hands
turned up and be utterly empty”

(from 2008/9 – the last line is from Sylvia Plath’s poem “Tulips“)

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